Self Doubt

    I haven't wanted to write lately because I'm experiencing a little bit of how do you say, I suppose self doubt. I have so much I want to write about and share with people but I'm almost afraid to write because I fear I don't live by everything I write. Okay, let me explain what I mean by such a statement.

    You know how people say 'I never take my own advice' or 'It's hard to take your own advice'. I sometimes think what am I doing writing about self-care and postivity when often I find myself sitting at home, wound up with my own negative thoughts. I really should stop myself there and realise that in itself is a negative thought.

    Self doubt creeps up on me and smears dirt all over my dreams and aspirations. I will admit, I sometimes don't take my own advice. It can be a struggle to stay on top of my thoughts and outlook. I slip up. I know that wouldn't be human if I never got upset or frustrated or stuck in an anxious loop.

   I like to keep things real, I'm a very open, down to earth gal and I am going to write about ups and downs. I want to write so I'm going to write. I can be my own worst enemy at times, as I imagine you can relate to but I am not going to let the negative thoughts and self doubt prevent me from writing about things I feel passionate about.

   Some days, I'm going to be good at living my life in alignment to my goals and dreams, some days I won't. I might fall down, I might cry, I might speak in a negative light but that's life. It's all about how you get back up. Let yourself fall, but pick yourself up and give yourself a cuddle. You are doing great and you can be who you want to be, because she is already inside. Everyday, you are getting better, you are growing even when you don't think you are.

    I'll leave a quote which I love with you:

"Finding yourself is not really how it works.
You aren't a ten dollar bill in last winter's coat pocket.
You are also not lost.
Your true self is right there, buried under cultural conditioning, other people's opinions, and inaccurate conclusions you drew as a kid that became your beliefs about who you are.
Finding yourself is actually returning to yourself.
An unlearning, an excavation, a remembering who you were before the world got its hands on you."

-Emily McDowell